Elegy to Cerberus

Today... yesterday... tomorrow ... ~ Time has no meaning... no relevance...
The Rearview mirror obliterates... effaces... the landscape of the Uplands' Meadows:
the sunshine is gone...
when she is gone, the sunshine disappears.
there is only darkness. there is no sunshine. no... no.. no...!!!
I have this life... and i have to compose something good...!???

Yet Cerberus beckons me... he solicits me... to immerse in the duality evident in Man and Woman.

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i must travel over untrodden ground alone... without my Muse... i am unable to acquire inspiration...
i am unable to smell her scents...
i am unable to penetrate her psyche.

i am not on this terrestial realm... plane... i have entered the next One...

Cerberus awaits me... he beckons me...

i feel no pain...

i finally feel no pain.

i have been dazed and confused...

Today: i am no longer in disarray...

Cerberus beckons me... ~ i respond in kind...

i have~ i must~ progress beyond this terrestial plane; value does not rest Here.
It is in the Other Kingdom.
It is beyond this mortal frame.
It is beyond the sensations of this
realm.

I must be like the Stoics...
i will be like the Stoics...
i must refuse all.
i will relinquish my five Personas... they will become obsolete.

i will die Here...
And be the Lazarus i have refused to be...
i will solicit Thanatos... He will be gentle... he will soothe my pain...
Hypnos will proffer to me those sweet nectars...
Ye Gods... Ye Goddesses...
i anticipate Ye sweet analgesic properties...
i will imbibe them... slowly... i anticipate the Last Drop...
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Although the Gulf of Mexico and its indigenous peoples must endure the Black Gold,
i will transcend this realm.
BP will superimpose its Golden Tender as i transcend the mundane... the horror...
the exploitation that is Capitalism~ the M@#&*?%...
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Thus, i will be ready for Cerberus who awaits me...
He beckons...
He prompts me to reject all the terrestial vices...desires: Eros
He whets my imagination with other metaphysical seeds...
i will acquiesce...
i will accept disarray...chaos... Thanatos...